I’ve been quiet lately, full of introspection, and trying to maintain my sense of peace. The election was yesterday; we woke today to a new path forward for this country, one that I am unfortunately not surprised by. I felt it on the wind a few weeks ago and I’ve quietly sat with that information. I’ve gone through the stages of grief – anger, denial, more anger, confusion, acceptance, and did I mention anger? The President-elect, in his campaign, has exposed layers of hate and intolerance that I had hoped didn’t exist; while he proved me wrong in their revelation, he won’t keep me down.
My intention this month really took form yesterday. To “be my own…” To be my own light; hope; love; kindness; compassion. And from me becoming that for myself, I can better become that for someone else who needs it. I think the strongest two of these are hope and kindness. When we heal as a nation, it’ll be from those two words.
So what can I do? I had a conversation with my sister tonight (well, two sisters, but I’m only referencing one – sorry JP). She pointed out how last week, on a really bad day, anger got the better of me and I put energy out to the universe (my translation) that I didn’t need to send. I’m not proud of that moment. But I’m striving to correct it.
I hope that the new administration realizes – they serve us all, even those that didn’t vote for them; I hope that my rights to love and to marry are not taken; I hope that women can still choose for themselves; I really hope friends of various ethnicities can begin to feel safer; and I hope that we all begin to see each other, to speak with each other, and to accept each other.
I want to be kind to all – especially those that may not agree with me politically. I want to be kind to myself – anger will win sometimes (that’s the dragon within) and that’s ok. As long as I don’t direct my fire and hold space for myself, that will pass; it always does.
Mending the Hoop of the People is serious business. But I believe in it with every fiber of my being. I mess up, but I stand back up and fight for what’s right. I don’t think I’m alone. Who wants to “be their own…” and join me to #riskchangingourworld?